Towards a healthier me!

Have been very hardworking the past week hehe after not being very consistent in my workouts the previous weeks.
Mon: Yoga
Tues: 4km run
Wed-Sun: Different fitness videos including zumba, bikini blaster and some random dance workouts which really got me sweating profusely.

And i have signed up for zumba class on tues! Its starting this week, hope it will be fun whee! Have been going for weekly driving lessons on sunday too, parallel parking is really not easy hahah. Somehow, doing physical fitness and learning new stuff makes me feel more alive. Cos it makes me feel like there's more to life than just work, work and work. Honestly, am really amazed at how hardworking my friends are! But I guess its also cos they have no choice. For me, after work, I really really detest doing any work-related stuff cos it should be my me-time when I get to do stuff I enjoy =D

Anw just hope I will be able to see results and get a much toner and slim body haha it gives me a sense of fulfilment when I fit into nice dresses and feel more confident about myself! Zy is going to have finals soon and he seems to be having a really tough time so I made him a welfare pack hahah. But y2s2 and y3s1 are the sems that are really KILLER, hope he can pull it through.

Don't expect too much

So I happened to read some of the past whatsapp texts from zy and I still find it amazing how we progressed over the months. Happy to say, up to now he still treats me with care although the compliments are lesser than when he was trying to chase me hahah. Met up with him for dinner at his place on wed and fri. Then headed to his place again on sat after pss and had sushi tei for dinner. On all the occasions, he always fall asleep for an h ard 9+ just when I wanted to go home haha so I was actually a lil impatient and annoyed. Somehow he managed to sense it and held my hand throughout the journey when driving me back. Am I being too unreasonable but sometimes I get bored when he's asleep?Which is like everytime and if his place was within walking distance from the met, I would have gone home by myself. But come to think of it, he is actually very nice to drive me back whenever I want to leave and also doesn't complain when he wasn't able to sleep all the way. I should really learn to be more understanding since he's my teddy :)
Oh and guess I have to tell mummy and daddy about him soon hahah they keep pestering my lil sis to ask if I am dating someone. Zy was also asking me if my parents knew about him. Not that I find him embarrassing or anything, just that my mummy will be so naggy and will keep questioning about where we went or what we did whenever I go out. Which was why I chose to remain silent about it. Oh and his mum bought me a super pretty kenneth cole watch which I love max. Kinda unfair how I have been hanging out with his family so much but mine doesn't even know about him right except for my sis haha. Sorry teddy.

I think I'm in love

To start getting used to having someone constantly in your life is honestly quite a scary feeling since life is so unpredictable. When you start falling in love with someone and to an extent, begin depending on him, it makes you wonder if this will last forever. And what if it does't? Your heart will be broken into thousand pieces and you will have to start learning to live everyday alone by yourself. I think I am quite an independent person and hence I always try to do things myself and not rely on others unless its really unmanageable. That is why I always try not to devote too much feelings to any particular person, and at the start of the rs when he told me he loves me, although I replied that I love him too but I wasn't actually totally sure. But recently, I think he has taken up a huge part of my heart which is warming but yet scary at the same time.

Now, I am quite sure I am starting to place more trust in zy as his actions so far have proven to me that he is a reliable support :) Although he is not a romantic, but he will always shower me with care, hugs and kisses. Awhile ago when he was struggling with school work, and hence became less active with his phone, he held me in his arms and told him how apologetic he felt when he was too tired with rugby, assignments and also cos he kept falling sick to message me continuously throughout the day. There were days when I didn't want to reply his msges cos it was lag or somedays when I was just pmsing but he never failed to get in touch with me again to ask me how my day was <3 Really thankful for his efforts.

I guess its also obvious how much I mean to him when he constantly tries to integrate me into his life be it rugby, dinner gatherings etc. He persuaded me to go learn a bit of touch rugby and watch him play on sat morn at housing. He is quite serious when it comes to games and its kinda amusing how he really doesn't make an effort to mingle with other people but was solely interested in playing only. I guess its good in a way since he is less likely to flirt around? hahaha so ytd he picked me up and drove to housing, then dabaoed nasi lemak and headed back to his place. Had a cosy nap :) feels so nice and warm to hug my teddy while sleeping. After that we went to the satay club with his family to celeb his bro's bday. Met him 3 times this wk ^^ actually it was going to be the fourth time but I have to do my presentation slides today :(
I love you teddy and I hope our rs can blossom.

Why does the mind and heart contradict each other?

Sometimes I find it really difficult to feel contented even though I know I am a really lucky girl already! I really hate this part of me too but I dunno why my expectations just start to increase and I will unknowingly try to pick on minor faults. Teddy is really quite nice to me already though he doesn't have much time for me and he is contented with just going on super simple dates. But I have always wanted someone who is hardworking, chooses work over fun, does not club or drink anymore. So why is the bitchy part of me starting to feel uncontented and keep wanting more? Maybe the problem really lies with me, he lets me go out and have fun and even tells me to enjoy myself even though he is struggling with school work etc. Ugh I should really learn to count my blessings but honestly I do wish he will be a lil more romantic and spring surprises to make life more fun :)

Don't be a woman who needs a man, be the woman a man needs

Today zy told me again "What would I do without you?" haha that makes me even more convinced to stay by his side and try to support him :) I had the day off since it was hari raya haji and he asked me to go over his place to study with him and keep him company. Haha studied a little bit and spent some time together <3 Then went out with his family for dinner at shin kushinya where we had a yummyyy japanese feast haha his parents are really kind to me :) His mum even bought a Aobali wallet when she went overseas previously haha so touched! ^^ Tmr i have unofficial leave hehe so I feel really happy now haha thank you god and I really hope my life will continue to be so awesome!

You only live once, but if you live it right, once is enough

Life's good for now! :) Went singing with some of the pharm ppl ytd and it was really fun to catch up with ppl I havent seen in a long time! Glad that everybody is doing well and overall I was v thankful for a happy sat! After that went to meet teddy for a seafood feast at his place and then we went to eat tauhway at the bean workshop and selegie road! Workwise, I actl coincidentally met this person twice at 313 and then on mrt back home hahah he's my eyecandy at work heh but he doesnt seem that awesome-looking up close when he came to talk to me haha. From far, he looked so much like "ding li wei" in the taiwan drama! Anw, I shld focus more on my teddy who is so nice to me :)

Oh and I have also been trying to keep a more active lifestyle which includes yoga, aerobics and runs hahah cant waitt till prereg is over then I can get a gym membership and go for dance and zumba classes ^^

Blessed

Hello I am currently feeling like a super blessed girl ^^ cos I am enjoying my work as it is the retail rotation at taka; where my preceptor is super nice and the 2 new colleagues I just met are super nice and I can get along really well with them :) No idea how I am gonna to survive my other inpatient rotations after being on "holiday" for so long hahah but well just see how things go.

Also feeling lucky that my bf still dotes on me even though I have my unreasonable days. There was this occasion when I suddenly felt so disappointed and started crying after he changed plans. It was a super minor change because he thought I only worked half day on sat but actually it was a full day so I was throwing a tantrum and decided not to meet him for dinner in the end. Not only was he not angry, but was instead so worried and kept trying to cheer me up. <3 Said he respected my decision and he brought me to Delicious cafe the next day for good food to make me happy. When my sis heard the story, she was like "omg, you are so demanding" then I realised how nice he actl was to tolerate me. Honestly,all along I had always thought that I was super undemanding but I guess bystanders get the clearer picture =p Anw, I find myself feeling more attraction towards him now than ever. Before this, there have been many days when I suddenly become very cold to him, not even bothering to reply some of his msges but he will always initiate to continue the convo and wish me good morn/night. It has been eight months plus alr so I guess its really not infatuation on his part? Hahah well but matters of the heart are still not so simple, but I really hope our rs will flourish and blossom :)