Personal thoughts

I am really grateful to have met this man/boy who is really really nice to me. I felt so guilty when he treats me so nicely when I was being mean to him, not bothering to reply to his msges when he was struggling hard to mug for his tests. I am really selfish at times, only thinking about myself, like "Why can't he accompany me on fun dates?" instead of being empathetic and going sch to find him etc.

Appreciate what you have

Honestly, I feel really really bad now for having an extreme mood swing suddenly and ignoring poor zy for the entire day who didn't even know what was going on. I realised the main problem was because I made comparisons to other couples; thinking how blissful they are and can always go on fun and interesting dates. But I know we should never ever compare to other people. What is ultimately important is someone who truly cares about you and wants you to be happy.

Its the first time a guy treats me so nicely but sometimes I will have my stupid princess tantrums and take him for granted. I really must learn to appreciate him as he is turning out to be a precious gem in my life. I realise how accustomed I am to having him in my life which is actually scary. His eyes were actually teary and he rushed down to my place just because I was upset. What have I done to the poor soul? The boy who has always been very honest about his feelings towards me, initiates texts and meet ups <3 Said that he had been through enough trials and errors in the past and don't want to return to the state of misery, so he is going to hold on to me for as long as he can, and that he is going to do anything to make me happy.

I am sincerely very grateful to have him appear in my life.

Reminiscence

So long since my last blog post hahah well life has been going quite well for me, now that I can go gym almost all the time and just rest whenever I want to. Just pray that me, my family, zy and his family will stay happy, healthy and safe for a long long time :) Really need to learn to be appreciative of whatever life has to offer :)

Melancholy

Indescribable feeling of sadness; feeling like I have let myself down. Even though I know it may not be so much of a big deal. I hope this soon will pass and I will be back to my happy confident self. No idea why but my tears just won't stop falling.

Dayre

Have been using dayre (dayre.me/chonghp) which is quite fun!! :)

Hello 2014!

Had an unofficial half day of work on new year's eve, ended at 1 pm ^^ After that, went to bugis to meet sijia, jiayuan and zhixue for lunch at MOF and did a bit of shopping! Then went Marche to meet zy for dinner, I was so full cos of the super late lunch so I didn't eat much. Felt like puking and was so sleepy to enjoy the dinner, but he didn't say anything and only encouraged me to eat more. I was such a bad dinner partner oops :/Went to walk a bit around orchard after that then in the end headed back to his place cos he said his place could view the fireworks. Turned out the view was obstructed :( and I kinda regretted not going to riverfront to watch the fireworks but I should be thankful that I had his company to watch the countdown this year right!Supposedly its 1314 (yi shen yi shi). No idea why I keep feeling this tinge of disappointment for not getting to watch the fireworks though :( Today is off day from work ^^ Had a good sleep but was supposed to go to his house and run together but he just told me his mum invited her work colleagues so I don't think I will be going over! Feels like a lonely new year's day and I didn't party last night, so wasted :( Well, just hope that 2014 will be a good good year please even though it didn't start with a BANG!

In the end I went to play tennis with yb hahah damn random and spontaneous but it was quite fun! Glad that I didn't lose touch with all my tennis skills and he said I played way better than expected for someone who didn't play for years alr! On a side note, love is as fragile as life especially seeing how many love stories end up with people being heartbroken etc. With that being said, it is no wonder how frightened I get when I realise how used I am to having teddy in my life. Hope we will have a happy ending! <3

LAST 2 days of 2013!

Overall, I feel really grateful to have had a splendid 2013. Thank you god for all that you have given me and for the many happy memories I had :) For now, one of the most significant highlight would have been getting into a relationship with teddy. Somehow he knows how to make me happy and also know when I am upset or annoyed, whereby during these instances he will pay even more attention to me and makes sure I know he cares. Went to river safari on christmas day with him and his family, which was quite enjoyable though we were pretty much exhausted by 12pm hahah went for an awesome lunch at Bah Soon Pa road before heading back to his place when we took a nap. Had dinner and then asked him to drive me back earlier cos I had unfinished work! Then on sat, we went causeway point to watch 47 ronin cos I was lazy to travel and had loads of work to do. He didn't complain and came to pick me up before going there together :) Turned out to be quite a nice movie! Told him it didn't sound very interesting when I read the review and he felt so apologetic making me watch it, but turned out to be different from what I expected hehe. On sunday, he invited me to join his friends at his house for a BBQ party but I had to do the slides for my project so I rejected him. He was very understanding about it and asked me out again on new year's eve which is tomorrow!

Just finished my intermediate yoga class and I finally feel more alive! Haven't been exercising much the past week but I shall go back to my hardworking workout routine soon! hehe jiayouuuu! Must strive to be fitter and healthier. Lost some weight and my friends said I look even better now but teddy doesn't want me to lose weight hahah he is always asking me to eat more while motivating me to continue working out so that I will stay healthy.

Hoping to end 2013 on a good note and hope 2014 will be even better!!!!! CHEERS and to a better and more awesome life ahead! Pray that me and my family and teddy and his family will stay happy, healthy and live long after ^^