To start getting used to having someone constantly in your life is honestly quite a scary feeling since life is so unpredictable. When you start falling in love with someone and to an extent, begin depending on him, it makes you wonder if this will last forever. And what if it does't? Your heart will be broken into thousand pieces and you will have to start learning to live everyday alone by yourself. I think I am quite an independent person and hence I always try to do things myself and not rely on others unless its really unmanageable. That is why I always try not to devote too much feelings to any particular person, and at the start of the rs when he told me he loves me, although I replied that I love him too but I wasn't actually totally sure. But recently, I think he has taken up a huge part of my heart which is warming but yet scary at the same time.
Now, I am quite sure I am starting to place more trust in zy as his actions so far have proven to me that he is a reliable support :) Although he is not a romantic, but he will always shower me with care, hugs and kisses. Awhile ago when he was struggling with school work, and hence became less active with his phone, he held me in his arms and told him how apologetic he felt when he was too tired with rugby, assignments and also cos he kept falling sick to message me continuously throughout the day. There were days when I didn't want to reply his msges cos it was lag or somedays when I was just pmsing but he never failed to get in touch with me again to ask me how my day was <3 Really thankful for his efforts.
I guess its also obvious how much I mean to him when he constantly tries to integrate me into his life be it rugby, dinner gatherings etc. He persuaded me to go learn a bit of touch rugby and watch him play on sat morn at housing. He is quite serious when it comes to games and its kinda amusing how he really doesn't make an effort to mingle with other people but was solely interested in playing only. I guess its good in a way since he is less likely to flirt around? hahaha so ytd he picked me up and drove to housing, then dabaoed nasi lemak and headed back to his place. Had a cosy nap :) feels so nice and warm to hug my teddy while sleeping. After that we went to the satay club with his family to celeb his bro's bday. Met him 3 times this wk ^^ actually it was going to be the fourth time but I have to do my presentation slides today :(
I love you teddy and I hope our rs can blossom.
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