Nostalgia

Sudden waves of nostalgia are hitting me today hahah especially when I browse through old photos. So much has changed since year 1, the people around me and even me. Well, I know that we should always look forward, move on and be contented with our lives :) I will try, even though its human nature to reminisce about the past. But I should be happy that now I have teddy by my side :) Even though he isn't romantic, but whenever I show the slightest sign of displeasure or anger, he will apologise and try to make me happy. Went his place on friday for dinner and he told me that he "forgot" to tell me that his grandma and uncle was coming over haha lol I think cos he knew if he told me beforehand, I wouldnt have gone. Anw his cousins are quite cute and kept calling me "Biao Sau" LOL. Then while watching tv, he told me that his grandma likes me haha. And its actually quite cute when he kept mentioning that his aunt was also older than his uncle by 1 year, reassuring me again that age doesn't matter.
It's of course not sweet all the time and sometimes he annoys me hahah but I guess if we both remain true to each other and put in effort, hopefully we can have a lasting relationship. Honestly, getting over relationships aren't a pleasant feeling and you spend days thinking about the happy past and wondering if you made the right decision on giving up. So I sincerely hope I wouldn't have to go through that phase again. :)

Towards a healthier me!

Have been very hardworking the past week hehe after not being very consistent in my workouts the previous weeks.
Mon: Yoga
Tues: 4km run
Wed-Sun: Different fitness videos including zumba, bikini blaster and some random dance workouts which really got me sweating profusely.

And i have signed up for zumba class on tues! Its starting this week, hope it will be fun whee! Have been going for weekly driving lessons on sunday too, parallel parking is really not easy hahah. Somehow, doing physical fitness and learning new stuff makes me feel more alive. Cos it makes me feel like there's more to life than just work, work and work. Honestly, am really amazed at how hardworking my friends are! But I guess its also cos they have no choice. For me, after work, I really really detest doing any work-related stuff cos it should be my me-time when I get to do stuff I enjoy =D

Anw just hope I will be able to see results and get a much toner and slim body haha it gives me a sense of fulfilment when I fit into nice dresses and feel more confident about myself! Zy is going to have finals soon and he seems to be having a really tough time so I made him a welfare pack hahah. But y2s2 and y3s1 are the sems that are really KILLER, hope he can pull it through.

Don't expect too much

So I happened to read some of the past whatsapp texts from zy and I still find it amazing how we progressed over the months. Happy to say, up to now he still treats me with care although the compliments are lesser than when he was trying to chase me hahah. Met up with him for dinner at his place on wed and fri. Then headed to his place again on sat after pss and had sushi tei for dinner. On all the occasions, he always fall asleep for an h ard 9+ just when I wanted to go home haha so I was actually a lil impatient and annoyed. Somehow he managed to sense it and held my hand throughout the journey when driving me back. Am I being too unreasonable but sometimes I get bored when he's asleep?Which is like everytime and if his place was within walking distance from the met, I would have gone home by myself. But come to think of it, he is actually very nice to drive me back whenever I want to leave and also doesn't complain when he wasn't able to sleep all the way. I should really learn to be more understanding since he's my teddy :)
Oh and guess I have to tell mummy and daddy about him soon hahah they keep pestering my lil sis to ask if I am dating someone. Zy was also asking me if my parents knew about him. Not that I find him embarrassing or anything, just that my mummy will be so naggy and will keep questioning about where we went or what we did whenever I go out. Which was why I chose to remain silent about it. Oh and his mum bought me a super pretty kenneth cole watch which I love max. Kinda unfair how I have been hanging out with his family so much but mine doesn't even know about him right except for my sis haha. Sorry teddy.

I think I'm in love

To start getting used to having someone constantly in your life is honestly quite a scary feeling since life is so unpredictable. When you start falling in love with someone and to an extent, begin depending on him, it makes you wonder if this will last forever. And what if it does't? Your heart will be broken into thousand pieces and you will have to start learning to live everyday alone by yourself. I think I am quite an independent person and hence I always try to do things myself and not rely on others unless its really unmanageable. That is why I always try not to devote too much feelings to any particular person, and at the start of the rs when he told me he loves me, although I replied that I love him too but I wasn't actually totally sure. But recently, I think he has taken up a huge part of my heart which is warming but yet scary at the same time.

Now, I am quite sure I am starting to place more trust in zy as his actions so far have proven to me that he is a reliable support :) Although he is not a romantic, but he will always shower me with care, hugs and kisses. Awhile ago when he was struggling with school work, and hence became less active with his phone, he held me in his arms and told him how apologetic he felt when he was too tired with rugby, assignments and also cos he kept falling sick to message me continuously throughout the day. There were days when I didn't want to reply his msges cos it was lag or somedays when I was just pmsing but he never failed to get in touch with me again to ask me how my day was <3 Really thankful for his efforts.

I guess its also obvious how much I mean to him when he constantly tries to integrate me into his life be it rugby, dinner gatherings etc. He persuaded me to go learn a bit of touch rugby and watch him play on sat morn at housing. He is quite serious when it comes to games and its kinda amusing how he really doesn't make an effort to mingle with other people but was solely interested in playing only. I guess its good in a way since he is less likely to flirt around? hahaha so ytd he picked me up and drove to housing, then dabaoed nasi lemak and headed back to his place. Had a cosy nap :) feels so nice and warm to hug my teddy while sleeping. After that we went to the satay club with his family to celeb his bro's bday. Met him 3 times this wk ^^ actually it was going to be the fourth time but I have to do my presentation slides today :(
I love you teddy and I hope our rs can blossom.