Personal thoughts

I am really grateful to have met this man/boy who is really really nice to me. I felt so guilty when he treats me so nicely when I was being mean to him, not bothering to reply to his msges when he was struggling hard to mug for his tests. I am really selfish at times, only thinking about myself, like "Why can't he accompany me on fun dates?" instead of being empathetic and going sch to find him etc.