Personal thoughts

I am really grateful to have met this man/boy who is really really nice to me. I felt so guilty when he treats me so nicely when I was being mean to him, not bothering to reply to his msges when he was struggling hard to mug for his tests. I am really selfish at times, only thinking about myself, like "Why can't he accompany me on fun dates?" instead of being empathetic and going sch to find him etc.

Appreciate what you have

Honestly, I feel really really bad now for having an extreme mood swing suddenly and ignoring poor zy for the entire day who didn't even know what was going on. I realised the main problem was because I made comparisons to other couples; thinking how blissful they are and can always go on fun and interesting dates. But I know we should never ever compare to other people. What is ultimately important is someone who truly cares about you and wants you to be happy.

Its the first time a guy treats me so nicely but sometimes I will have my stupid princess tantrums and take him for granted. I really must learn to appreciate him as he is turning out to be a precious gem in my life. I realise how accustomed I am to having him in my life which is actually scary. His eyes were actually teary and he rushed down to my place just because I was upset. What have I done to the poor soul? The boy who has always been very honest about his feelings towards me, initiates texts and meet ups <3 Said that he had been through enough trials and errors in the past and don't want to return to the state of misery, so he is going to hold on to me for as long as he can, and that he is going to do anything to make me happy.

I am sincerely very grateful to have him appear in my life.

Reminiscence

So long since my last blog post hahah well life has been going quite well for me, now that I can go gym almost all the time and just rest whenever I want to. Just pray that me, my family, zy and his family will stay happy, healthy and safe for a long long time :) Really need to learn to be appreciative of whatever life has to offer :)

Melancholy

Indescribable feeling of sadness; feeling like I have let myself down. Even though I know it may not be so much of a big deal. I hope this soon will pass and I will be back to my happy confident self. No idea why but my tears just won't stop falling.

Dayre

Have been using dayre (dayre.me/chonghp) which is quite fun!! :)